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So by Wednesday morning Sashi really couldn't walk much at all - she could make it to the litterbox next to her bed but not into it, and she kind of just fell over if she was sititng too long and she couldn't get her back legs over the side of her cat bed. So I called Diana, who is one of the most awesomest people ever, and she came up to Gainesville and sat with me until I could take Sashi in to the vet. They'll let you stay with your cat the whole time, and I wanted to because I feel I owed it to Sashi to be there with her. Dr. Gordon and the vet tech were both really, really nice, and they let us sit with her for a while after. I was also able to donate her body to the vet school at UF, so I feel kind of better knowing that her body went to science, in a sense. The doctor called with the report today, too. It turns out it was (very hard to identify) carcinoma, which started in her bile ducts and had spread to her chest and liver. That means there was absolutely no way to prevent it, or stop it, or do anything about it, and that she lived as long as she absolutely could. So that's a little reassuring (well, as reassuring as that is?).



The shorter version: I now have no cat.

Honestly, I'm almost feeling... better now that it's over. I mean, I am not back to 100% normal, but I'm doing better now that I can't worry about her anymore, because I've spent most of the past three weeks at home just watching her have more and more trouble and worrying so constantly that it was becoming routine. But I really do barely remember a time before we even had her, and I am definitely going to miss her a whole lot (to grossly understate the matter). It's already kind of lonely in here, but when I go home at the end of this month for my cousin's bridal shower I'm planning to bring a cat (or two) back - not to replace her by any means, but I know I would like another cat.

So, um, that's that. A million thanks again to Diana for coming up here and coming with me, because I don't know if I could've done that alone.

Anyway, I promise my next entry will be happier because I suppose life is starting to get back to normal now, but I felt kind of wrong not at least saying what had happened.